Pace Yourself

There are many topics regarding my mental health that I really want to write about. I want to get my thoughts out there and hopefully help someone else who might be going through the same thing, or maybe help people understand others who might be struggling.

However, a lot of these topics still loom too large in my mind to be able to put into words. Sometimes I have an idea, but then it falls apart. Sometimes I realize that I need to do more work personally before I am even comfortable detailing these experiences. Sometimes I question whether or not I truly want to share something so sensitive to me.

That is not to say that I haven’t written and posted things on this blog that I wasn’t ready to put out there. I knew even as I hit schedule post that said post was not where I wanted it to be, but I also knew that I wanted to keep my posting schedule consistent. And hey, even being able to write anything about certain topics is something to be proud of. I’ve done my best to avoid doing that recently and am much more comfortable with pivoting topics in the middle of a post that just doesn’t feel quite right.

Because, hey, it’s okay to change your plans and it’s okay to pivot to a new idea.

Imagine me saying that over a year ago. Unthinkable!

On the other hand, sometimes I find myself being negative about not being able to put something into words. I think this comes from the desire to fully process all of these experiences. I want to be able to say that I conquered my food anxiety, or have completely moved on in my deconstruction. I want to move past all of these things, to snap my fingers and say look at me, I solved anxiety! All my problems are gone!

Obviously that’s not how anything works, and it all takes time. Someday I will be ready to write about all of these things and I can’t wait to share those stories with you. Just remember that there is no timeline for coming to terms with difficult experiences, you have to do it on your own time.

I’m right there with you, keep going!

—Abbie